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2011/09/09 || 4:00 pm I miss you but more than that I miss all my college friends. I miss how college life was, simple and easy. Okay, that was such bullshit, but let's admit, life then was easier. We were happier with each other. |
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2011/08/09 || 4:30 pm stop making sorry sound so cheap |
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2011/07/28 || 8:33 am With even more backlog, thanks to my constant procrastination, I now have even the Singapore trip to blog about as well as my minor surgery. This is my secon time watching Becoming Jane, and I think it is a brilliant movie. The level of emotions the actors and actresses portray, how James McAvoy and Anne Hathaway look so heartbroken, it is devastatingly beautiful. and I shall end my blog with this. |
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2011/06/27 || 3:53 pm There is so much to update, but as usual I feel tired, lazy. The trip to Southwold, Suffolk. The trip to Manchester. The trip to Pembroke, Wales. Now, I am about to go home. The feeling is mixed, mostly because I have to pack up and I will not be back in this room. The feeling is mixed, because being in this country I already miss you. The feeling is mixed, because I do not want to face the reality that we may not be friends anymore. The feeling is mixed, because I feel hostile. The feeling is mixed, because I want to go home so bad and I am finally getting to do it. Sigh. |
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2011/06/10 || 7:18 pm 
Am I too needy? 
Am I scaring you away? 
The truth is I need you  I didn't mean to be so needy Can't you tell, that this smile is slowly fading away |
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2011/06/09 || 11:28 pm Just got myself some music CDS, James Morrison - Undiscovered (£3) Michael Buble - Crazy Love, Hollywood Edition (£5) Stereophonics - Decade in the Sun (£5) Kings of Leon - Because of (£3) It feels great. I chose not to buy Katy Perry's album that I really wanted because it costs £7 and I was not willing to pay for that. Dyed my hair light brunette but under the light I cannot see if anything has changed, so I shall wait till morning. Perhaps a picture later tomorrow, to cheer me up and to bring life to this dead blog. Pretty bows and lovely colours, you cheer me up without fail. I really need to stop blogging only when I am upset, I do, have a life after all, despite disappointments and let downs. As much as I make it sound all gloom and dreary, it is not. =) |
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2011/06/08 || 9:00 pm Sometimes it drives me up the wall that people do not keep to their word. There is no planning ahead, and words spoken are merely words, not meant to be promises or reliable. This sucks. Sometimes, it is hard to have a positive outlook when all you can think of is how much everything sucks. Tell me, can you hold your head up high and be happy even when your friends keep letting you down? I cannot. |
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♣ 919 someone stop me please
2011/05/31 || 11:30 am Blog wars. That's what blogs do when they go slightly wrong. blogging with anger, blogging without thinking, blogging without care, blogging in complete truth. Yes, the truth hurts. It takes a spark to start a fire. And you are my spark. I guess everyone is prejudiced, and attempting to explain one's emotions on the blog-sphere is not wise at all. Why would anyone else be able to relate? I tend to overthink and take blog posts very personally and treat them like my secret inklings to your thoughts. Paranoia, that is what I have. I think and believe that while everyone is entitled to their thoughts and all, somethings need not be expressed on a blog. Perhaps another outlet like a proper personal one, where others cannot see how immature and childish, or even selfish one is. Perhaps I set my standards up too high, perhaps I am a nutter, but perhaps I am merely one of the many voices telling you to shut up =) We are selfish creatures of this world. Sometimes these selfish thoughts and nature reveal themselves in so horrifying a moment that even others are shocked. Sometimes, friends fight to strengthen the friendship. Unhappiness and anger are all thrown out in the pile to be burnt and gotten rid of. Sometimes, the fighting does not even happen because one realises the futility of it all. The giving up of a friendship may seem to be easy, and it sure looks easy, but no matter what, the heart dies a little inside. The amount of time and effort invested, just to realise that this project will never yield any result but continue to suck the life energy out of one. It is a sad moment, but it happens. I have long classified you in that category, but you continue to prove me right, again and again. That, breaks my heart. I hate losing friends, and you are no exception. However, in the pursuit of happiness, as well as evolution, I will leave you behind because you have never put me as part of you list anyway. Stop pretending to be my friend when all you want is attention. Get it from the boys, they are so much better at kissing ass. |
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2011/05/26 || 10:28 am Sometimes the feelings of disappointment just refuse to budge. I just do not seem to understand why people cannot keep to their words. Is it really that difficult? Promises, all empty. Words, all meaningless. "I'll text you when I'm done" "Yes, let's go together" "Yes, let's meet up" These are the most common ones. I cannot even remember the others. If you don't want to, just say so. If you keep forgetting, maybe you're not putting in the effort. If you can't be bothered, thankfully neither can I anymore. Don't give me empty promises and meaningless words, I don't want them. The truth is actually that you can take those things and shove it up yours. Thank you. Anger management, yes, I need that, and you need a brain darling Here's a song that Devina "gave" to EmEm =) I like it and so I am sharing it. and this, is my new favourite, over replayed song |
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♣ a wake up call
2011/05/25 || 10:53 pm No, I am not really awake. No, I am not really clear. In fact, the confusion looms and continues. I forgot, to check my blog. In the process, I neglected other peoples' blogs as well. It seems almost foreign, what that used to be a daily ritual, is now unfamiliar and a little strange. Yet, once the typing began, it seemed like second nature to blog, to talk to oneself, to engage in a conversation with the cyberworld. So much has happened, in the short time I stopped blogging, in the time I haven't updated properly, in the time that I have left Malaysia. Yet somethings never change. Reading your blog and then blaming myself, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then listening to the songs on repeat, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then getting mad over your insensitive, selfish comments, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then getting inspired, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then wondering what happened, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then wondering where the time has flown to, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then missing you, missing us, that has not changed. Reading your blog and then having a great urge to blog, that has not changed. Life and its drama. I'm no drama queen, but even I know you need to tone it down. True, life does not go the way you want it to, but trust me, even if you did get every moment exactly the way you wanted it, you'd still find something to whine and complain about. Did you know.. that all this reflects on your personality and your personality is clearly on your face? Well, if you didn't, now you do. And I wondered why you wore so much make up. |
